good morning

most boring begin the same with the same mellow emotion of happy. determined to do what i  have planned to do no self loathing no dislike for anyone or anything. I pretty much would love to stay in this mental state all day. but it seem as the day goes on and you have more in put to ability to stay in happy neutral dies.  and the way to continue in a happy way seems to be the feeling of productivity. I am very good at  unproductivity. I dont think im a very good house wife. its really hard to think of things that need to be done around the apartment. it always looks perfectly clean to me its not like there is anyone to make it messy. and what i dont get is why david gets home from work and starts cleaning stuff  thats already clean. it really makes no sense to me  and he wants me to do that but really i dont see what he thinks is dirty. and when he cleans he doesnt understand bacteria and how grows transmits and what kills it he seems to think soap and a sponge with kill it.... lol soap just breaks water surface tention so you can easly clean of surfaces making water a more efficient solutions.  anyways he is really smart about alot of thinks but bio anything he is definately more practical than i am. I get hung up on information and conflicting information. for example if you say something and to me what you say are two things that sound conflicting they both delete each other because when you say A & B and A slightly  contradicts B neither can exist together.  so it is like you've said nothing.  but enough of my rambling.